Letting Go

So, lately I've been coming to terms with a few things and making some new life decisions. I guess you could call it a sort of 'death and rebirth' phase if you wish. Im learning to perform this balancing act of trying to be patient with my emotions and allow myself to truly feel through them, but at the same time, not to wallow in them too much and still get on with life and keep myself active, if you get what I mean ? And when I say that, I don't mean going to the gym - Thats a rare, almost non existent occasion... Kidding ! ... (not really).

Anyway, my latest 'activity' was a night out in London to catch up with some dear friends of mine, whom I hadn't seen for way too long due to travelling and just general life getting in the way. We met, drank one too many tequila shots, danced the night away, basically just had one of those care free nights full of silliness and laughter. Which was very much needed - although maybe that last tequila shot wasn't ! 

  But, on the walk home I started to lose things. My purse being one of them - turns out it was in my pocket the whole time... yes I'm a drunken fool - (I still do this when I'm sober). Then, whilst dancing my way through a park, my ring that had a small sentimental quote engraved onto the inside of it,  flew straight off my finger into a pile of yellow and orange leaves on the ground. This moment immediately reminded me of a quote that I had read before,  "Autumn shows us how beautiful it can be to let things go".

Forget the ring. I didn't bother to stay and search for it. This applied to my life on a much bigger scale. The point I'm trying to make is, sometimes in life, we wish for things to be something they simply are not. Sometimes, we want things to work out a certain way and we can't face the fact that it simply won't. Sometimes we spend so much time and effort trying to salvage or make sense of something lost or broken. We keep trying to hold on and put the pieces back together when too much damage has already been done and the best thing may just be, to let go.

When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be. When I let go of what I have, I receive what I need.
–Lao Tzu

Let go gracefully and with love. Who knows, the things you once lost may come back to you in some form, and if not then they have left room for something better that is on its way to you. Life is a funny old adventure, filled with ups and downs. We must learn to embrace change, to allow our lives to flow. Find the beauty in the dark moments just as much as the happy ones, there are lessons to be learnt in both and you can't appreciate one without the other. It may be a struggle sometimes, but it sure as hell is worth it.